Halted Between Two Worlds: Letting Go Of Who You Were To Become Who You Are

Dear Leaders,

You know, it has taken 13 years of personal, professional and leadership development, to understand who I am as a natural born leader; how I was engineered to lead and what message I am to deliver to my assigned domain of influence. I am excited about this because the redevelopment of my mindset was purposefully intense to dismantle how I perceived the world, my core beliefs and myself!

In truth, I have not always been a willing participant in this transformation endeavor. For becoming the Teresa I need to be to step into new possibilities meant letting go of the previous version of myself; some people I love; the places I had become accustomed; the things I worked hard to acquire and the influence that I earned. I had to remember that new wine cannot survive in old wine skins.

My unwillingness to let go of my former world forced me to stay in environments that I had long outgrown; became detrimental to my physical and mental well-being; delayed the progression of my purpose and hindered right resources from finding me.

Leaders, for those of you that maybe halted between two worlds of who you were, and who you have become, count up the cost to determine if going backwards or remaining where you stand is worth risking the time, effort and energy that was invested into your transformation. Deep within, you already know that there is only one clear path--and it is usually forward.

So, for those that choose to make room for your newfound way of thinking and being, remember that it is okay to mourn your former world and self. But after you do so, arise, express gratitude for what you have learned, set your face as flint toward your path of greatness and do not look back!

If you want to move forward and not sure how, schedule a 30-minute complimentary discovery session below and let us discover how to clear your path!

From My Heart to Yours,

Teresa

Vision: An Excerpt From "My Journey to Wholeness The Sojourn Continues"

Vision…

My Journey To Wholeness: The Sojourn Continues

Written by: Teresa K. Page

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In Today’s Episode…

Leaders, you will not believe what I have found! I came across the audio of my very first video I ever posted on YouTube years ago called "Vision". Vision is an excerpt from my first book "My Journey to Wholeness The Sojourn Continues". It is my attempt to define the pursuit of becoming who we are meant to be!

As you listen to this spruced up version, visualize who you want to be in 2024 and how will you lend yourself to the course to realize what you see. As you listen, make your hands ready to reap the harvest of the countless seeds you've sown in good ground over the years. As you listen, prepare your heart to lead from the unlimited realm of Love to produce the tangible light, innovations and outcomes that will cause our teams, families, communities and the world to flourish!

Like and Subscribe this video to join me on this mile of my journey! Here's to the power of Vision!

From my heart to yours...Happy New Year!!!! 🧡

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From my heart to yours,

Teresa

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Your Presence Is Not Optional

According to the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, an average of 130 citizens within the American family die by suicide every day. Wednesday, December 14th, 2022, we all learned in disbelief that Stephen "tWitch" Boss, a bright light in our culture, was among that average.

While our thoughts and prayers go out to the friends and families who must mourn and begin the journey to heal from such tragedy, how will we that remain bring this illusive criminal of suicide to justice?

I am not an expert in this arena, so I will not attempt to speak on this from a scientific point of view. But what I do know is that we must secure and anchor ourselves in LOVE to stand a fighting chance in these unprecedented times! This includes God’s Love…our family’s Love…our friend’s Love and…Love of self!

Love…of…self! This is the nail I want to hit on the head; for we do not spend enough time Loving ourselves. I may be alone here, but when I was faced with the decision to go on with life or to end it all, Self-Love was the crucial factor that I had to weigh in the balance. Its presence, though limited at that moment, was the dividing factor between me, eternity and time.

Over the years, I have learned that Love of Self is not automatic. Self-Love has to be learned, perceived and comprehended. Self-Love requires intense studying of our personal inventory such as our gifts, callings, talents, strengths, fearlessness, as well as our fears, weaknesses, ignorance, threats and areas of opportunity. No one else can do this work for us! There are no shortcuts! We have sole ownership in discovering that we are predestined treasures given to this generation to address a particular problem that will go unresolved without us.

And if no one has ever said it outloud, there is nothing that we have encountered that will pardon us from fulfilling the mission we were SENT into the world to accomplish. We cannot take the cargo designed for this world into the next.

Hear me with your hearts and not with just your heads! We are living in a painful era in our history and we each have a mandate to administer the remedies stored within us to reduce the inflammation of our society's woes. This is not the time for us to go missing.

So, what do we do from here?

• Let us be proactive in rooting and grounding ourselves in the effective power of Love to hold us steady when things get ugly!

• Let us lean hard upon Love’s authentic wherewithal to bear our most intense realities and to arrest the private thoughts that would have us do harm to ourselves or others.

• Let us become solely dependent upon Love's intelligence and wise counsel to produce right now and long term solutions to meet every one of our wants, problems and needs.

• Let us turn on Love's light internally to investigate why we, in our imperfections, are perfectly formed and selected to shine bright in our assigned spheres of influence.

• Above all, when we have to come face to face with the decision to live on or end it all, let us not make this decision alone. STOP and call a trusted confidant for immediate help.

• If there is not confidant nearby, let us contact the trusted resource 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline by calling or texting 988 or visiting their website: https://988lifeline.org.

Leaders, wrap this around your heads and your children's heads…our ecosystem CANNOT work without you! You are SENT into this world on purpose and for a purpose! You are NECESSARY! Your presence is not OPTIONAL!!

You’ve heard me say if before and I will say it again…always choose Love, for it is beautiful for every situation!

Here’s to the journey! Let’s move forward!

~Teresa

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Stay In The Game: A Reflection of Business Lessons Learned in 2022!

As we prepare to wrap-up this year, I cannot help but to reflect upon the lessons 2022 has taught me about building a new business. It is the hardest, yet the most powerful thing I have ever done! Being driven by the mission to help Women renew their leadership mindset with fresh fire and purpose has caused me to know why I was brought into the world. And while I may not know all of the twists and turns ahead, I know what I am made to do!

There is much work and more to learn in 2023, but if I may, I would like to share a few things for new entrepreneurs to consider as you continue on your journey…

Lesson Number One…as we move forward to assemble our customer base, we must continue to develop our personal value and the value proposition of our goods, services and marketing strategies. Our local Small Business resources are designed to help us with these measures, business growth, maturity and long-term maintenance. Whether it is the Small Business Administration here in the states or a similar construct abroad, these types of services are available to entrepreneurs in a complimentary one-on-one consultative framework.

Building a business is not always sexy, but we do not have to struggle as hard if we take advantage of ready guidance to nurture our greatness! 

Lesson Number Two…developing community is key to our success! As we endeavor to meet our target market via networking, we cannot forsake the power of the one-on-one connect! Taking that extra step to conduct post event follow-ups to schedule these special 15 to 30 minute calls has opened doors for me to spotlight awesome business leaders in my Women’s Leadership Mindset blog series; feature as a guest writer in other leader’s newsletters and online courses, and speak as a guest panelists at some pretty amazing summits and podcasts.

On the flipside, I have had a few bumpy experiences that has taught me that many of us do not know how to have these pivotal conversations. Under no circumstances should we abuse this valuable time as a sales call to force a product; to recruit a new representative to our down lines or to gain a new client. Any attempt to impose our will upon a fellow entrepreneur that would divert their energy away from their mission and vision is disingenuous and inappropriate.

Successful one-on-ones can vary, but they are fundamentally designed to help us, as business leaders to:

• Learn about each other and our motivations.

• Learn how we serve the world with our businesses.

• Learn each other’s preferred client profile.

• Learn the kind of language our prospective clients speak that would trigger a referral to one another.

• Learn if there is an opportunity to collaborate in our work.

I believe the ultimate goal of a one-on-one is to push one another, as entrepreneurial peers, a step closer to achieving our organizational goals! If we can walk away leaving behind a business tip, resource or warm introduction that may lead to a bigger opportunity, then we have done our part to enhance to business ecosystem!

Lesson Number Three…we must get comfortable with the idea that we are not for all people. We must become intentional about positioning ourselves where our target market lives to engage with those that:

• Believe in the value of what we have to offer.

• Have a need for what we have to offer.

• Can afford what we have to offer.

• And have a relative willingness to pay for what we have to offer.

As new entrepreneurs, many us struggle with the value of our good and services and often lower our prices in panic. But we should only adjust prices, IF it makes sense--not because someone said we are too high. It is important to conduct research to ensure our pricing is in alignment with our business type, industry and region to become and remain relevant. Some of us will find that we may need to increase the value of our goods and services instead of decreasing.

Yet, in an effort not to harm or economically alienate potential clients, a possible solution to consider is creating a tier pricing structure that provides a menu of standard to luxury bundle packages that could meet your customers needs and wants on all levels.

Lesson Number Four…if we need to get a job while you're building a business--get one! It does not make us a sell out to do so. We still have to pay for our life while we build our legacy. If possible, search for a position that will give you freedom to still work on your business until your business can stand on its own to support your family, lifestyle and community passion projects.

Lesson Number Five…if necessary, we must have a willingness to streamline business operations to launch further out into the deep. This process requires us to assess our progress utilizing the data provided via our social media, website and marketing analytical tools. The numbers do not lie and will help us make sound decisions for the health of the business. To maintain the wellness of our business will demand a willingness to start or stop activities that are good to focus on that which is right. Actions will vary, but could include:

• Eliminating costs where there is no Return on Investment (ROI).

• Investing to position our products in bigger markets beyond our current networks.

• Reallocating the currencies of our gifts, time and energy into the people, places, spaces and initiatives that will consume our offerings and elevate the growth of our organizations.

Leaders, it may seem like I am overstepping my boundaries here, but I recognize where some of you are on your journey. I am on the same path and actively doing the exact things I mentioned above! Love In Leadership is the message I am carrying and it is demonstrated in my books, speaking, conferences and coaching. I know that this message is the right message for the age and I am committed to doing what it takes to carrying this message to the right people successfully!

In these early stages of creating something that will last for the next 100 years, it would be easy to shift gears because we may not see immediate results. But, in these moments, it is important for us to remember why and how we came to the market for such a time as this. It was not a mistake! It takes time to build trust, a solid clientele and generational wealth!

So, bottom-line, adjust what you need to in order to STAY IN THE GAME! Give yourself the gift of a holiday break so you are refreshed to jump into the new year. Above all, remain true to your WHY! You did not come to the market for nothing. Your first thought is the right thought! Now, cultivate it and WIN!

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A CALL TO ACTION

To re-energize the leader you always were, join me for Love: The Success Factor Women’s Leadership Conferences beginning in January 2023!!

These 2-day immersive experiences will demonstrate how Love empowers Women to lead, create and generate wealth in the fullness of our equality and purpose!

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Love The Success Factor: Employing Love In the Workplace

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In my quest to help Women to renew their leadership mindset with fresh fire and purpose, I have discovered after years of development and firsthand experiences, that the ultimate key to Women’s success is the effective power of LOVE.

Love is our nerve center. Love is our fuel. Love is as necessary as air, food and water. Love has everything to do with how we see ourselves; how we interact with others and how we perceive the world. Love is the driving factor behind all of our major personal, professional and faith decisions. Love motivates our overall success and our performance.

Without Love, the Woman can dysfunction. Yet, with Love, there is no limitation to what a Woman can do! None!

Why is this important from the business perspective?

This kind of information is important, because one of the top issues facing businesses in the 21st century is the underutilization or misuse of Women in our society and workplaces. If we expect to see continued longevity in our organizations; sustained growth in our economy and advantageous progression in all industry sectors, we must give the Women in our professional spaces the kind of Love that can flourish within our corporate buildings, co-working hubs and virtual offices.

There seems to be an automatic inclination to believe that Love has no place in our boardrooms and team meetings without losing sight on profitability, but I submit to you that we can no longer afford to leave our most skilled asset in the lobby of our business matters. For Love is more than an emotional conduit for our hearts, it is the most powerful, diverse, effective and high-performing resource available to the global family.

Just imagine if Love’s unlimited authority and influence were invited as the helm of our organizations. How much more cohesive would the relationship between c-suite leadership and direct reports become? How much would company loyalty, leadership development and internal promotions escalate?

Significantly!

Just imagine if Love’s infinite awareness, understanding and insight were at the forefront in our policies, procedures and processes. Would sexual harassment, bullying or workplace violence still be a thing? Would we still have a need for emotional intelligence or diversity, equality and inclusion training? Would matters of equal opportunities and equal pay still be up for debate?

No!

Just imagine if Love’s unlimited benevolence were embedded in our core values. Would demonstrating value, respect, appreciation and empathy stop being an internal struggle for us? Would our internal and external stakeholder relationships become stronger? Would our customer service and satisfaction efforts skyrocket? Would our value proposition and customer referrals go up?

Yes!

Just imagine if Love’s ever presence was actively evident in our operations and teambuilding efforts. Would employee engagement, morale and productivity increase? Would team collaboration, synergy and communication improve? Would leaders finally lend their talent the room to grow in the roles they were hired to fulfill with autonomy and potential for upward mobility?

Absolutely!

Employing Love’s creative power and innovation as a function is easier than we are willing to admit and poses no threat to our business model’s ability to scale. For those of us willing to partner with Love possess a courage to do business in great waters. The key is becoming skillful in wielding Love to abolish all inequities in our hallways. The key is perceiving that Love is a gamechanger that gives us an edge to be:

• Powerful in leadership

• Fully present for our teams and stakeholders

• Innovative in our goods, services, concepts and inventions

• Knowledgeable in industry trends and technologies

• Benevolent in our community service.

So, I have said it before and I will say it again…always choose Love! For it is beautiful for every situation!

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A Call to Action

Should you like to learn more about how to reimagine Love as a skillset, click below to discover my Love The Success Factor Women’s Leadership Conferences.

Stay tuned for upcoming 2024 events as we prepare to demonstrate how Love empowers Women to lead, create and generate wealth in the fullness of our equality and purpose!

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Here’s to the journey! Let’s move forward!

~Teresa K. Page

Upping The Ante for Our Next Generation of 21st Century Leaders

Over the past 4 weeks, I stepped off my path to take on something that was honorable, yet quickly learned that I made the wrong decision. The undoing of my decision may have created irreparable damage to my name, character and reputation, but if that is the cost to finally understand that my life's work is no longer negotiable--then I take full ownership and the “L” so I can move forward!

I have lived long enough to know that even in the midst of misalignment, there is always a lesson to be learned and I learned the following three:

1. Leave the doors of your past closed. There is nothing in your past that is needed for your today.

2. Just because something is honorable and good, does not mean it is right.

3. We must be more intentional about instilling a leadership mindset in our children.

The last lesson is what is having a profound affect upon me. For my heart is heavy that more of our children do not know that they are the most intelligent beings on this earth equipped with authority. Their lack of understanding is on us—the adults in the room. Their total unawareness that leadership is a divine right and responsibility for all—is on us!

Here we are twenty-two years into a new millennium and instead of embracing our diversity to become a well-rounded thriving society, we are still in these streets denying and even stripping away basic equal rights. With messages like this coming from the highest of platforms, how could the next generation ever conceive that they have their own domain to govern with sound influence?

I don't know about you, but I have had enough!

My Sisters, as Women and Earth Mothers, we MUST settle accounts with our own personal equality and leadership; for we are in danger of passing to another generation a fight that should have been resolved and forgotten years ago. We can no longer depend upon the powers that be to finish the job. It is up to us to liberate ourselves so that our children, and their children, can have a chance to become the completely free citizens our planet was designed for. 

My Brothers and Earth Fathers, we cannot do this alone! We need you! We need all of you to open your eyes and see that we have always been your equal in leadership, intelligence and physicality! Seeing us in any other way is not profitable, favorable nor sustainable. It is not too late to demonstrate to our children that leading together will move mountains and will enable us to destroy the strongholds of oppression in our lifetime!  

We can only succeed in this feat if we are all in our rightful places of authority. Delaying the start of that business; hiding out in positions we do not belong; staying in positions we have outgrown and not healing from our traumas are not serving us well! Time is of the essence and we must be about our work to hand off to our children a world that is whole and positioned for growth!

Our children are watching, Leaders! As first partaker of this message, I am back in my assigned place to do my part in renewing Women's leadership mindset with fresh fire and purpose. I am also committed to creating a space for young leaders and entrepreneurs to be developed without interruption, fear or intimidation. I ask that you will also up the ante within your domain of influence and commit to contribute to the development of our next generation of 21st century leaders with me!

Together we can equip our children to take the baton; run towards a more just society filled with economic and technological possibilities and never look back!

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Call to Action…

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The Rediscovery of Us: The Silver Lining of A Global Pandemic

Regardless of how dark the 2020s has been to date and how hard the human family has been kicked in the chest by this pandemic, we were never powerless! Each of us held, and still hold, the power to choose whether to surrender to the malaise of this moment or to vehemently ride this wave to preserve life at all costs. The fight is yet active, but we are beginning to see hope. I wonder who we will be when we get to the other side of this? That is to be seen. Yet, I am optimistic that we will emerge as a victorious people so that this interruption in our history and culture will not be for naught.

While it may seem inappropriate, I cannot, in good conscious, deny the silver linings and the portals of opportunities that opened because of COVID-19. We were given the gift to pull over from the rat race of “making a living” to repossess life. This was a unique moment in time to move at supernatural speed to revisit old put-off ventures or to create witty inventions. This was the time to repair existing relationships or establish new ones from a virtual social distance. This was the time to address our finances; buy or sell property and make giant money moves. This was the time to rediscover US!

Being quarantined, we were forced to settle accounts with our personal selves whether we wanted to or not. I am curious to know whose image we saw when we looked in the mirror. Did we see the person we have become by circumstance or the reflection of the person we always dreamed to be? I am inclined to believe it was the former. The right now question is, who showed up on our behalf in the boardrooms, offices, classrooms, restaurants and warehouses as we reopened? Our stunt-double? Or our true authentic self ready to embrace our full value? I trust it was the latter!

For the first time in a long while, the global citizenship has a real chance to paint a better reality for ourselves, our children and our world as a collective! The key is having the courage to “Become Undone”! You see, to "be undone is more than a suggestion. It is a command! It is a divine permission to fall open and unleash the totality of our beauty in its full concentration without restraint, compromise or forgiveness. It is a mandate to turn the miraculous into norms and make the exceptional the rule. It is the utter annihilation of any watered-down version of ourselves (Page, 2021).”

My hope is that we can roll off the dust of this dark season and start living fully! For we are not the same people we were when we walked into this epidemic. We are in a special moment wherein, we, as regular citizens are now in the power seat to effect change; seek positions of purpose; negotiate livable wages and set boundaries for true work-life balance. We speak of being in the age of a Great Resignation, but it may be possible that we are finally ready to take our rightful places upon our mountains in Business, Education, Entertainment, Family, Finance, Government and Religion. It is also possible that we can no longer stand to live beneath our massive potential.

Here is the good news! The windows of possibility are not yet closed. We still have room to reset our lives; create witty innovations and act upon fresh concepts that will bring us into a place of sustainability. There is still time to release the 2.0 version of ourselves by assessing the distance between who we are now and who we want to be. How we determine to close the gap will be our plan of execution that will require time, urgency, commitment and an upgrade on our personal development.

To prepare for your next big life move, consider one of the following suggestions:

• Should your plan of action require an enhanced set of knowledge, consider earning an educational credential. To discuss a desired program of study, contact the education institution of interest to request an appointment with an Admissions Advisor.

• Should your plan of action require a career reset, consider connecting with a Career Center for progressive career support. To sharpen your interviewing skills; update your resume or gain access to career events, schedule an appointment with your alma mater or community’s Career Advisor.

• Should your plan of action require upward movement in you career, consider seeking professional growth opportunities with your current employer. To learn about internal leadership trainings, mentorships, stretch assignments and promotions, request a meeting with your manager and/or HR department.

• Should your plan of action require starting or growing a business, consider contacting your local Small Business Development Center to learn about resources related to business planning, digital marketing, financial projections and more, contact your local center to request a one-on-one consultation with a counselor.

• And should you need guidance on creating a plan of action, I invite you to schedule a complimentary coaching session.

As I bring this conversation to a close, I pray that we will effectively eradicate this illness together and that our hearts will mend from its outcomes. In the meantime, I commission each of you to "Be Undone" and to become the person you always imagined to be—leaving nothing on the table!

Until next time…here’s to the journey and let’s move forward!

Teresa K. Page, LLC | Performance Coach, Author and Speaker

Helping Professional Women Renew Their Leadership Mindset with Fresh Fire and Purpose!

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Reference:

Page, T. (2021, October 1st). Be undone: the destruction of Teresa Page as you knew her! Squarespace. https://teresakpage.squarespace.com/tkpagejourneysblog/2021/10/1/be-undone-the-destruction-of-teresa-page-as-you-knew-her

Be Undone: The Destruction of Teresa Page As You Knew Her!

A few days ago, I was reminded about an ancient passage of scripture written by the beloved scribe Enoch, which walked with the Lord. He indicated that the Lord--who is self-eternal and not made with hands--could not find peace until He made visible the creation, He created from non-being and invisible things.

According to this writing, the Lord called forth Light and commanded Light to "Become Undone"! And Light became undone and made visible all the creation that the Lord thought to create! After an age, the Lord then called forth Darkness and commanded Darkness to “Be Opened”! And during its age, Darkness became open birthing the creation of all lower things.

 In the midst of these ages, the Lord made Himself a throne, sat down, said it was good and let it rip from that point forward! It was not until everything He conceived in His thoughts was made manifest that He was able to rest on the seventh day!

I hope you were able to catch what I just shared. If not, let me summarize it for you. Carrying the thought of creation, the Lord of Glory could not find peace! He was only able to rest after He created what He was carrying!! The moral? We, the very images of God, are no different from our Heavenly Father. For we will not find the peace that passes all understanding or the rest that enables us to cease from our own works until we release that deep thing we are to create in this earth realm!  

This revelation has taken my breath away and has cleared the smoke to help me understand my purpose and focus for this year and beyond! It has also helped me close the books of my past by revealing the source of my restlessness felt in the past year and explaining why I had to contend with the most fierce giants that detected I was getting too close to the truth.

You see, to "Be Undone”, is more than a command! It is a divine permission to fall open and unleash the totality of our beauty in its full concentration without restraint, compromise or forgiveness! It is the utter annihilation of our former watered-down selves! It is a mandate to turn the miraculous into norms and make the exceptional the rule!! It is our opportunity to cause our Heavenly Father to marvel and say, “Now, that is good”!

Since I came into direct contact with this knowledge, I have not been right with myself. I am altered and can no longer exist as I did before these disclosures or operate with this kind of dominion download on my hands. I am becoming unrecognizable and “Teresa 2.0” is actively staging an internal revolt demanding release!

 It would make me more comfortable to liken this revelation experience to a crossroad, wherein I could pretend that I have a choice in the matter and hold myself captive for another season. But, I have no such luxury! In fact, the Lord in His genius and timing has brought me to a place where I have nothing else to lose and no place to turn literally! All that remains is the opportunity to manifest the beautiful, genuine and organic treasures the He has successfully excavated in my earthen vessel.

My excavation has taken years to uncover a portion of its yield! It has required the relenting of my self-reliance; stretchings; prunings; humiliations; losses; NOs; YESs; facing my worst fears; taking hard blows to the chest; knockdowns; get-ups; the eluding of promises; the dismantling of my faith and the renewal thereof! Though I am still in transformation progress, I am learning the endurance of the aforementioned pressures and discomforts were not for naught! For what is ultimately coming to the surface is a refined purpose that will nourish this generation and the ages to come long after I am gone!

So, here’s to being undone!!

Here’s to being opened!! 

Here's to the destruction of Teresa Page as you knew her!

The Hope of His Calling

An Excerpt From “My Journey to Wholeness: The Sojourn Continues”

Want a real battle on your hands? Tell a Page woman that she does not work hard—and the fight is on as a never ending list of all she has done with little to no sleep is tallied. As an apple hanging from the same family tree, you cannot tell me I have not put my time in! I was living on my own at the age of 17 and since that time, I have wholly poured out my soul onto good and righteous matters! In the name of the Lord, all that I have performed was accomplished with a fervent anointing and sincere heart. Impressed? Me neither.

For the past twenty some years, I have been pretending to walk out my life’s calling. Afraid to compete, I have taken planned escape routes to avoid true achievement. In my cloud of working menial jobs; hiding out in small towns; championing other people’s projects and entangling myself in doomed relationships, I have managed to paint the facade that I am actually happy and taken good care to keep purposelessly busy!

I have to come clean! Daily I am mocked by the restless disgruntled groaning in my belly for not living my little girl dreams. The glimpses of my destiny haunt me without ceasing and I cannot find solace. I am fully aware that the Lord Himself has orchestrated the housing of books, music and businesses in the chasm of my person, but I still run from the notion that my aspirations live in corporate buildings and in global markets. I figured if I ignored these foolish thoughts long enough, I would wax old and they would leave in peace. Not so!

Every morning I awake to New Mercy staring me dead in my eyes daring me to become all the Lord smiled and predestined me to be millenniums ago! I give up! I give up, for even my body is turning on me for tolerating the delayed fulfillment of my life’s intent! I can no longer avoid the hope of the Lord’s calling on my life (Ephesians 1:18)! Uncle—I cry, Uncle!

Like a bolt of lightning striking me in my chest, I am forever changed by the next italicized words of Proverbs 13:12,

“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life”.

Let me repeat that,

“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life”.

These seventeen words answered why I often scaled the ledges of depression. It was not that I was slowly losing my mind! It was not that I was weak in body! It was not that my life was spiraling in shambles. On the contrary, for my intelligence is quick on its strong feet as they stand in the most awesome of places. Plainly put, the root source of my blue funks, which could paralyze me for days, was the sheer postponement of my destiny.

It is most interesting to me that Proverbs would mention the sickness of the heart instead of the body, but I get it. Heartsickness is a documented illness that ultimately takes shape in varying degrees and forms of depression. Whether classified as the mildest “low spirits” or the most extreme “melancholia”, depression, left to do its work, has the ability to debilitate the entire human body from the destruction of the emotions to the breakdown of its functional systems.

Could the deferment of our hope be the real reason many are physically and mentally sick among us?

This is a theory to strongly consider, for if we look at our communities, schools, workplaces, houses of worship and especially the hospitals and prisons, the candlelight of ambition has dimly cooled. The lack of vision is fatal! It fades natural beauty; trades swift footsteps for shiftless scuffles and chemically warps the brain from producing original imagination! Such conditions coupled with systematic laws designed to prevent success subjects the human soul to slavery.

It is not coincidental that the symptoms of underachievement are mistaken for affliction. We make appointments to sit in sterile doctor’s offices just to stand in line at a white washed pharmacy with an illegible prescription in hand to pacify our subsistence! This minimal level of survival cannot be medicated and we consciously know it! Yet, we are twistedly comforted to cope with poorly disguised mechanisms designed to sedate the mind into crippled living. Regardless of our sedation efforts, we are ever awake and incapable of escaping the fact that a life lived opposing its intention is of low generic quality. It is time to stop popping the pretty colored pills; snap out of this trance and unplug from this ungodly matrix!

I know what many of us are thinking! We think that it is too late to begin and that we do not have what it takes! Oh, but the devil is a liar, for this is the age of the unlikely hopefuls. We are not only highly suspect, but perfect prime candidates that are most apt to confound the wise! 2 Peter 1:10 affirms,

“Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall”.

Who cares if many of us do not have a silver spoon jammed in our mouths—we shall never fall! Forget that we are labeled as the forgotten, the overlooked and underestimated—we shall never fall! Though we may be uncultured, unpolished and very rough around the edges—we shall never fall!

The Lord highly enlightens and anoints His people to walk upright in the offices He has placed us. Too wise to utilize a singular approach, there are a myriad of gifts, operations and administrations, specialized by the same Holy Spirit, for us to fulfill our work in the earth (I Corinthians 12:1-31)! So, as long as Philippians 1:6 tells me,

“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ”—there is hope!

Therefore, with both fear and bravery, I take a deep breath to answer the call.

A Revelation of a Former Servant

A few days ago, I was seeking the Lord’s wisdom on a particular matter and as I expected direction, the Lord said to me that I have been showing up to Kingdom opportunities dressed as a servant.

Ummm…Owww!

While this was hard to hear, in His loving kindness, He did not leave me there, but challenged me to read Galatians chapter 4. It has taken some time to get around to it, but I finally took a moment to read it the other night and understand why it was necessary!  

As I look over my life, the Lord was right! The many places I found myself over the past 20 years where not conducive to my intrinsic skill sets, but was directly in alignment to my low esteem. I camped out in unlikely territories driven by perfection, because I did not believe that I belonged in higher dimensions. I was an imposter hiding in plain sight! Yet, without fail, there was always somebody that would call me out in the spirit to demand, “You don’t belong here!”

Again, I say, OUCH!  

After reading Galatians 4, the revelation hit me in the very pit of my stomach, because up until this point, I took pride in my service to others and servant leadership all in the name of Christ! While that seems honorable, doing so was never the Lord's intent nor the reason why Jesus Christ came to redeem Man.

We thought it was all about our sin,  but Jesus came to restore us to our original place in glory as Sons! As Heirs! As Kings! Not convinced of this? Check out lyrics of the song the citizens of heaven even sang in Revelation 5:9-10:

“And they sung a new song, saying, Thou art worthy to take the book, and to open the seals thereof: for thou wast slain, and hast redeemed us to God by thy blood out of every kindred, and tongue, and people, and nation; and hast made us unto our God kings and priests: and we shall reign on the earth.”

Listen! Regardless of what challenges you are faced with right now, check your servant garments at the door and approach that matter as an heir of God full of the Spirit of Christ! 

Tap into the Lord's realm of genius and burn your servant garments to never wear them again! While you're at it, reject the romance of servanthood forever; for there was never any glory, honor or righteousness in seeing ourselves as lowly, weak or beggars!

As we endeavor to operate in our spheres of influence, understand your "service" unto your assigned territory is an expressed demonstration of our Heavenly Father's benevolence to His people! 

Moving forward, when we show up in any room or put our hands on any problem or project—arrive fully! Bearing all your gifts of the kingdom ready to bestow them upon those that need such grace, love, kindness and mercy! 

No wonder we've been having such a hard time! We are Kings that have impersonated servants all of this time! Well, we're busted! So come out with your hands up and surrender to your original blessing of Dominion and redeemed place of Sonship! 

Let us put on our appropriate garments which is Christ Jesus! Our hope of glory! Our King of Kings and Lord of Lords!

Be Undone: A Charge to the Young Poets and Writers Of Fulton Science Academy

Sunday the world collectively stood still in silence and grieved at the unbelievable loss of Kobe Bryant, his daughter and seven other souls. Some grieved because of who he was over the last 20 years. Others grieved because of all he could have been in the next 20 years! Whichever side of the line we may stand, this young man utilized his time and gifts wisely in such a minute amount of time that the universe will never forget his name.

Life is short! Whether we live 13, 35 or 105 years--it is only a blink! When we go, how will our names be remembered? How will history even know we were here? What actions or gifts will be synonymous with our presence? What tangible achievement will the world be able to reference when our head is cold? What will be our legacy?

Legacy is a strong word, but it has sat upon my heart for the past year or so. I can't really say what has triggered the need of it, but it is a necessity for me now! Legacy is one of the reasons I began to write books! Words are not only creative, but they are alive in spirit and are eternal! Therefore, I take comfort that the words I pen today will be preserved, heard and read 1,000 years after I am gone! My writing will help the future become acquainted with the Woman that I always imagined to be—Fearless and Amazing! Living the exact life I dreamed! Saying the exact words I intended to say! Fully comprehending my contemporary thoughts without pause! Because of this, I am driven to leave every gift I came assembled with in this Earth as they will be of no use in the world to come.

Young poets and writers, hear me with your hearts and not with just your ears! You are the social prophets of the age that captures the feeling and rhythm of our modern culture for the future generations to experience in their real time! Whether you are full of whimsy or aflame with militant fire, you have a responsibility to be authentic and speak the truth in a cunning way it can be received! You are charged to "Be Undone" and set at liberty to pour out yourselves upon the people, territories or regions you have been assigned!

You see, to "Be Undone", is more than a suggestion. It is command! It is a divine permission to fall open and unleash the totality of our beauty in its full concentration without restraint, compromise or forgiveness! It is a mandate to turn the miraculous into norms and make the exceptional the rule!! It is the utter annihilation of any watered-down version of ourselves!* 

So young people, if the version of you that is sitting before me today is an imposter or your stunt double, I pray that you will not be right with yourself until you come to terms of who you are designed to be! I hope today's revelation will alter your spirit so that it will never be okay to just merely exist. I expect you to become unrecognizable among your peers and that your genuine soul will stage an internal revolt and demand release!*

In closing, I commission you to "Be Undone", this day forth and to do the following:  

• Utilize your time with urgency to hone your giftings by way of education or development. That includes, but is not limited to, college, apprenticeships, mentorships and more!

• Never let a good storm go to waste! When the storms of life and the universe come for you to test your validity, don't run! Use the rage of the storm to strengthen your character! Listen to its winds for the lesson you must learn! Then make the storm work for you by allowing it to blow off unnecessary rubbish to reveal the kind of Man or Woman you are!  

• Discover yourself and the treasures you possess!

• Optimize these types of platforms to practice the functions of your gifts in safety! And stretch your talents beyond its comfort zones to see what it can really do!

• Never allow external factors to define or make you ashamed for being an Original! Ground yourself in your value and keep your self-esteem in check! For our first responses of low-esteem is to hide who we truly are!

• Erase and eject any ideas that your gifts and talents are for your personal pleasure alone! They are tools destined to dazzle, confound, heal and set free the world around you!

Young Poets and Writers, the world is waiting to hear from you! Don't make us wait too long!

Let's go to work!

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*A reference from: “Be Undone: The Destruction of Teresa Page as You Knew Her” http://teresakpage.squarespace.com/tkpagejourneysblog/2019/2/3/be-undone-the-destruction-of-teresa-page-as-you-knew-her

The Code of Trust...

Ten years ago, I stood in my parents' living room telling my Father that though l loved him and Mama very much, I had to leave our town to follow an unction! An unction to turn aside and discover who I really am! In the process of time, I've seen too much! Endured too much! Survived too much! Escaped too much! And conquered too much!!

Yet, in pursuit of this unction, I dived deep into unknowns and observed Purpose in all of its wonder! It is without age; quick to chase and hard to kill! It cannot be forced into dormancy nor appear beyond our reach! It supersedes blood, duty and death to leave a legacy stamped on eternity's history! It is too intelligent to forget the name or face of an intended assignment nor allows rest until its execution is done! It is so imprinted on the hard drive of our DNA that it cannot be altered nor left to chance!

My encounter with Purpose, these past years, has destroyed my limitations and unraveled my former self for a greater journey. It prepared me wings mounted to cross into the realm of uncommon faith where I must trust the Lord in every inordinate aspect without normalcy! On this spectrum, Trust is a code that insists I shut my natural eyes to see my unseen Captain's visage and perfect will with a renewed mind! It is a creed that demands my agility to soar above the high clouds and go down to the sea to do business in great waters! It is an oath that forces me to let go of sure provisions to attain divine promises my senses cannot detect.

"Trust Jesus", was the only two words my Earthly Father gave me on the first day of my adulthood and I still live by that command. For while I was "seeing too much", I watched the Lord's matchless power manifest itself right before my eyes! While I was "enduring too much", the Lord was fashioning me into a kingdom heir to legitimize my seat in heavenly places! And while I was "conquering too much", I found that the name of the Lord was good with me, as I saw it wipe clean and set straight atmospheres with one utterance!

With full consciousness, I choose to trust Jesus! Not because I am perfect, but specifically because I am not! For only in my weakness is His strength perfected! My very existence is solely dependent upon the immutability of His counsel and His inability to lie! Without His integrity, my entire world would cease if just one of His words failed!! Just one...

So with the weight of that, I am walking off this page singing a hymn the old folks use to throw their heads back and sing in great triumph...

I will trust in the Lord!

I will trust in the Lord!

I will trust in the Lord until I die!

I will trust in the Lord!

I will trust in the Lord!

I will trust in the Lord until I die!

Amen...

I Have No Legal Right to be Without…

It is a lie of hell to believe any narrative that eludes that not asking our Heavenly Father for both our needs and desires somehow makes us more righteous. The scriptures reveal that the Lord Jesus Christ came that we might have life and more abundantly! So, at what point did we decide that it was okay to cope and settle for the cards scattered upon our tables? If we can ascertain that we have a God that is able to do exceedingly above all that we could ever ask or think, shouldn't we have the audacity to want more? 

The answer is YES!!

I have been assessing my internal inventory and found that I long ago adopted the idea that the Lord would send all I needed my way without my participation of asking and believing! Not only is there no honor or glory in such belief, but it is a cop-out! For if I can get away without requesting any gift from the Lord, then I can pompously attribute my lack to God's will to justify my complacency and far remove myself from requirement! For to whom much is given, much is required! This could work if Jesus did not leave a contradiction on record in John 14:14 indicating, "If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it". Knowing this, it is almost illegal for me to be without! In fact, I have no legal right to be without!

Coping is an evil concept; for it means to come to terms with a present situation and subsist--which is a synonym to maintain oneself at a minimal level. A minimal level in sickness, poverty, abuse, irrelevant relationships, unhappiness and more! A minimal level wherein we befriend these things and become acquainted with their companions of excessive substitution meant to sedate us into a falsehood of living! Which is not life at all nor the liberty Jesus died, resurrected and lives forever more for!

There are treasures in heavenly places stored awaiting our audacity to come before the throne of grace and ask for that mercy we have need of! And once we attain such a need, we cannot reserve this supernatural mercy for just our shortcomings alone! This kind of mercy is a power source and driver for our assignments, success and kingdom conquests! 

We have a Father that so loves us and so ready to show Himself strong on our behalf, that I can no longer, in good conscious, allow Cope and its friend Subsist live in my mental capacity! They have not paid one dime in rent in all of these years and are being evicted effective immediately according to the codes and the regulations of the kingdom of God and the articles expressed in His rightly divided word! 

Come on! Let's snap out it and unplug from this matrix! We don't need a red or blue pill for this! We got the Word of God and must insist on its promises! The Lord is waiting on us to do so! We got a life to start living! Let's live!

Love The Key to Woman's Glory

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An Excerpt From “My Journey to Wholeness: Love Letters From the Throne - Volume I”

As the finishing touch in the Earth's creation, the Woman is swayed in dominion; fortified to subdue; prolific to be fruitful; exponential to multiply and stocked to replenish! She is comparably designed as the sole equal counterpart of the Man and built to be his match in physicality, intelligence and strength!

On all platforms of the spirit, soul and body, the Woman is the catalyst that ignites intimacy; the incubator of the generation's seed and the only creature that delivers divine DNA safely into our realm! Her mentality is hardwired to perform executive functions; defaulted to never forget and explicitly keen to recall a memory by the whiff or glimpse of the familiar. Her ability is unparallel and her emotions are acutely tuned to detect the unseen and the unheard!

Though the ages has multiplied her sorrow and subjected her to the whims of men--the Woman has prevailed! Though the world holds her in contempt for our chaotic state and often distrusts her motives--the Woman is loaded with remedies for all ailments! Though the systems discount her as mere property and a second class citizen--the Woman blossoms beautifully among the thorns and briars! Though her adversaries relish in destroying her magic and withholding rights, protection and provision--the Woman is atomically equipped to flourish and her needs are supplied by Heaven every time!!!

Consider this...

If history has proven that the Woman's success in dominion cannot be breached by the unfavorable conditions of: inequality, classism, sexism and racism-- how much more would the application of Love unlock the depths of her treasures? For, Love is the key to the Woman's glory! It is imprinted in her codes and runs in her veins! It is her fuel and ranks high above the needs of air, water or food! It duals as the source of her power and her kryptonite in the poor imitation of unrequited reciprocity!

The most inhumane act done to Women has been the conditioning that her security in love is contingent upon external factors! No other creature in creation must hang their happiness, self-worth and functionality upon this manner of madness! Nor is any other female species forced to choose love among the acquisition of: husband, children, education, career, money and materialistic ideals for fractured fulfillment!

The Woman must internalize that she was first and wholly loved in the mind of God when she was just an idea! The blueprint of her construct was formulated in His genius and released in a dimension to thrive without apology or limitation!! If the Woman ever perceives that she is perfectly loved upon arrival, she will unleash incalculable and insurmountable favor the worlds would never recover from! If the Woman ever comprehends the boundless love of Jesus Christ, she will apprehend the fullness of God and manifest in supernatural measure! If the Woman ever ascertain her totality, she will never be disarmed by the lesser or overwhelmed by the mighty again!

In His infallible wisdom, the Lord established the Woman as an outcome and the trajectory of mankind was forever altered! The Heavens made her an Earth Ruler! Man identified her as the bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh! The Generations call her Mother of All Living! And Hell reveres her as Nemesis and Enmity! Truth is, the Woman is bad all by herself, yet the extent of her greatness remain untapped, restrained or locked! In its simplicity and majesty, Love is, and will ever be, the only self-activating key that will set the Woman free in all of her aspects!

With that said, my Sisters...turn the key! For our future's sake...Turn the Key!!

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The Wing of the Storm: A Higher Dimension of Greatness

With the exception of the Eagle, it is said that during a storm, most birds hide in the leaves and tree branches until it passes. It is believed that Eagles not only love storms, but get excited; for it uses the rough winds to lift itself higher until the "wing" of the storm is found! When that sweet spot is discovered, the Eagle maximizes the weather's rage to ascend above the clouds to the optimal place where it can glide and rest its wings.

This information correlates beautifully with the human experience of elevation! For at the brink of transition to a higher dimension of greatness, the emergence of oppositional storms to disinherit one's divine promises is a given and the rite of passage! The question is, can we get excited knowing we must encounter the deadliest, the scariest and most treacherous conditions for upward success? In all honesty, my answer will be YES--once the transfer is complete! LOL!!

I have lived enough to detect the preludes of a shift! It is the space in time that if it wanted to go wrong, it does! If it wanted to be inconvenient, it was! If it wanted to be unbelievable, I saw it with my own eyes!! Traditionally, this is the place where I am the most weary, unsure and must rely solely upon the unequivocal power and genius of Jesus Christ to rise upon me!! In doing so, I am empowered to stop fighting against the storm and ride its madness to the advantageous glory of God!!

When I first arrived at this season of life, I was just learning my wings to determine if I could fly! I didn't expect such a strong storm, but a hard demand was put on my feathers to prove them for higher altitudes. I have experienced exponential loss, but each degree of loss took me exponentially higher! I have experienced moments that knocked the wind out of my chest, but for every ounce of wind taken I have witnessed beauty that required such breathlessness. I have contended with birds of prey that sought to discredit my character and mar my confidence, but for every swipe of dishonor the Lord exalted me in humility!

In all of this, Love remained my constant teacher, nemesis and gatekeeper. For at each level of altitude, Love required a costly toll of my fear as an exchange for entry. In many instances, I thought it cheaper to stay rich in my apprehension; for being disarmed of my fears negated my defense of non-performance! I often thought it would be easier to underachieve, but the cost of not elevating to the next realm or returning to previous depths is far more expensive!

This current apex has required a stretching, a recalibrating and a breaking of a fever over my own head. Though the verdict is still out on whether I am a better woman, inescapable evidence ascertains I am not the same woman that first appeared. This aerial space has clarified my worth; enlarged my fearless perception; preserved my soul's intangible currencies; verified my value is not based upon perfection and seared my faith immovable with fresh revelations of Christ Jesus!  

I do not know how the heavens will judge me here, but my face has turned and is fixed to the vertex above me!! My wings are full in strength and conditioned for the storms and turbulence ahead, as well as, the new levels of speed, conquest, passion,  enablement, capacity, courage and vision!!

So...here's to the flight!

Mount up, Girl!!

No Longer Afraid...

What can I say about this week? I am not exactly sure, but I will say that something has happened to me. I almost missed it, because it was not obvious and slowly crept upon me. I discovered that I am not afraid. 

I am no longer afraid of the consequences or outcomes of being me. I no longer feel the need to convince others of who or what I am! Nor prove what I can or cannot do in accordance or comparison to others. The Lord had something in mind when He thought of me and He didn't miscalculate nor slip-up. I am necessary. Whoa!! Did you feel that?!! That just took my breathe away!! I have to say that again...I am necessary! Good God, Almighty! One last time...I am necessary!

What does this mean, I wonder? How will this translate and what will be the end result? I don't know, but I am reminded of something the Lord said to me early one morning. He said, "Because there is no fear in me, there is nothing that I cannot do"!!

Taking that statement into full consideration, it is clear that fear, in its torment and intimidation, is nothing more than failure multiplied! It is a coward...it cannot produce...neither can it multiply in its limitation! Fear has no strength of its own and its might is empowered by the freedom we decide to give it to reign in our very lives!

This stands to reason that the Lord's unlimited ability to create anything He puts His thoughts and words to is founded by the fact that He is Love—fear's polar opposite!

There is no fear or failure in Love and because there are manifold heights, depths, widths and breadths to its nature, it means there are also manifold heights, depths, widths and breadths to its success! 

Now it is becoming clear to me why we must be rooted and grounded in the love of Jesus Christ, because it is there where we have the fullness of God--which is absolutely infallible!! And if our Heavenly Father is infallible, so are we in this world as His heirs! 

Forget about being exceptional—let's disinherit fear and breach it’s promise in our lives so that we can forever be infallible!!

BOOM!! And might I add...BAM!!

Contend For The Faith: Unbelief and Attempted Murder!!

I was awaken way too early reminded of a five minute encounter I had with a tall Caucasian gentleman a few months ago! Per our conversation, he shared his concerns for his sons' dire need for both work and education.

I learned that one of the sons' passion is to be a chef, yet he already made the case that it would take years to develop in the profession. As a result, he thought it easier not to pursue the dream at all and has sentenced himself to something without resemblance. My stomach began to hurt to know this young man has already shut the book on his whole life  and has decided to forfeit the courage to grab hold to his dreams at all costs!

As I spoke a little longer with this gentleman, he began to tell me of his years in law enforcement and his dream to be an event planner to enjoy happier moments. I smiled and began to provide resources that could help him achieve that goal. After every statement I made indicating how it could be done, I watched him shoot the hope of his own dream down one bullet at a time!! After the 5th or 6th dreamshot, I stepped out of civil character to speak of our original purpose; its wealth and how we owe it to ourselves to live out our passions in this lifetime! There was a look of shock on his face as he said I should be a motivational speaker and walked away! As he walked, I sent a message to his son that at the risk of failing miserably, he must try to become what his heart says become!! 

That whole ordeal was painful and I have to give pause to my perplexity to inquire what the John Brown has happened to us? When did we sign the agreement to surrender our innate dominion to become eternal cowards? Where did we learn to rather suffer than pursue our supreme purpose? Who or what has taught us to become trained assassins to our own lives? For as much as we want to place blame on the boogie man, haters or bad luck, it is by our own hands that we commit attempted murder on our desired pursuits!!

For five minutes talking with this gentleman, I stood on the opposite side of unbelief and "it sho' was ugly" (In Shug Avery's voice)! I wonder if this is how the Lord perceives us when we do not, cannot or will not believe in Him...His ability...His performance...and His immutability of counsel to fulfill the promise in our lives!! I now understand why it is impossible to please God without faith! For it matters not that we have a Heavenly Father with manifold riches, grace and mercy to finance our dreams if we don't first believe in Him, ourselves or that we can be what is hardwired in our DNA!

Now before anyone says, "I was never shown or taught that I can be anything!", I will be the first to admit that it is hard to believe without a precedent or reference! BUT isn't it both ironic and wonderful that the whole concept of faith is void of precedence, experience and what we can communicate with our physical senses?  Faith is the hope of things NOT SEEN! It is the invisible power source that makes the impossible possible and the unthinkable feasible! Therefore, I should not be moved by those things I can see; for if I can feel it, see it and attain it in my own strength, then I have no reason to hope! I want my life to be fired by those things beyond my human reach as it will force me to invite the Lord's unlimited nature to manifest something mind blowing in my world and the world I influence!

I don't want the Lord to catch me on the wrong side of unbelief! I only want to be found contending for the faith! Our enemy knows that the Lord's blessings cannot be stopped, but our adversary will weary or obstruct our hope by a barrage of blinding disappointments to skew our belief system! If our foe's attempts and assaults are successful, then our faith is compromised! And if our faith malfunctions, we chance binding the Lord's hands from having a free course in the Earth!

Wrap this around your head!! Faith is the only thing the Lord requires of us to move Him—it is not by our goodness or by our works!  From salvation and beyond, He wants to show Himself strong in our lives!! In fact, His eyes are going to and fro over the earth seeking for such ones!! Today, our hearts are sick because we have deferred our hope! If we mess around, just once, to take a chance to fulfill the desire of our hope, it is our tree of life!! I charge you to contend for your faith! Fight for it so that the Lord's hands, which are full of wonder, are always open towards us!!

~Teresa K. Page

Too Deep For The A.M.: The Inquisition of Blood

Sooo...it's a holiday and I have been wide awake way before 6 AM! I log into Facebook and was hit by an old memory post I wrote describing a terrible dream I had three years ago and the revelation thereof! Can I just say "WOW?", for this post was heavy then and just as heavy today!! I am going to title this..."Too Heavy for the A.M.: The Inquisition of Blood"!

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Too Heavy for the A.M.: The Inquisition of Blood

All of my life I have been a vivid dreamer, wherein the Lord shows me specific things that are both joyful and terrible. I woke up this morning in tears from a dream laced with ancient racism, sexism, war, terror and assault and my heart is so heavy. The terrible things I witnessed from thousands of years ago causes me to wonder why our world still wrestle with these legendary principalities today.  We, as a human body, in all of our pompous technology and knowledge have yet to learn how to defeat the repetition of our history! Instead, we keep passing these poisons from one generation to another and each generation figures out how to make the detrimental uglier! 

We believe we are superior enough to wield our detriment as power on the world's stage, but it only results in mass degrees of tragedy! And it is during these tragedies that I ask, "Lord, Where were you?"! I ask in such accusation as if He is not all knowing and aware of these occurrences! What nerve; for He was neither the initiator nor the blame! We humans boast in our power of free will, but when the error of our poor decision-making reaps into a horrible, but accurate consequence, suddenly we expect for this God to blow the referee's whistle to put an end to our madness. We forget that our cause will always have an effect one way or another! 

I guess my real concern is toward the innocent that always get tagged in the midst of these erratic crossfires. What broke my heart in my dream was that an innocent bystander was made subject to the whims of the wicked. I remember the look in that person's eyes, and as the dreamer, I could not reach in to help them. In my heaviness I asked the Lord why again and He led me to Psalm 9 as a reminder of His judgement. I read it and my heart is back at peace! The thing about us humans is that we want justice and we want justice NOW! There is nothing wrong with that! Sometimes we get it and sometimes it is reserved for a specific time. Sometimes evildoers think they are getting away and sometimes they get tangled up in the very traps they have set out for others. It's a toss up! 

We keep forgetting that our Lord is PROACTIVE and has already set an expected end from the beginning! We must stop thinking that just because the Lord is not REACTIVE to the rampage of injustice that He does not see it! You better believe that He definitley sees it and according to Psalm 9:12, "When he maketh inquisition for blood, he remembereth them: he forgetteth not the cry of the humble". I love that word "inquisition" for it means judicial investigation! So when the Lord makes His "judicial investigation" for the blood that has been spilled, He will remember. 

The Lord is not slack concerning His promises! Venegence is His!! Now is the time that grace must abound! Though these are dark days, GRACE still abounds! But when that great notable day of the Lord comes...smh...I don't even have the words! In the meantime, let us keep our trust in the Lord--for He is our refuge in the time of trouble!

Perfect Love Cast Out All Fear...

It is impossible for fear and love to dwell in the same space. The scriptures indicate that, " Perfect love casts out all fear"! So that stands to reason that the presence of fear is the absence of love! And where perfect love abides, fear is forbidden and has no legal right to be in the room!

Until recent, I have discounted my capacity to love because some could or would not receive it in its most genuine state! No more! I had no idea that love is the solution of all things and the greatest source of power known to man IF we know how to wield it skillfully! 

The love that is branded to my person is not for everyone and cannot be bought with a price! Yet, it is good to those that choose to bask in the light of it and must be given away freely; for who could rightly judge its value?

I will love beyond myself in Christ Jesus and will not cower to the possibility of rejection or deception! If rejection comes--let it come! If deception arises--let it arise! For this kind of living cannot be reduced to just emotion, but is a kingdom expectation that is not for the faint at heart! 

Life is way too short to be afraid and careful! I was selected to dock in this Earth to unload divine cargo and my vessel will leave this world empty of its treasure! Death will not have the opportunity to profit from anything of mine! It's all or nothing! I choose all!

Taste and See...

Not long ago, I tasted something that was very bitter, but I continued to chew and swallow it. The appropriate reaction would have been to spit it out, but I did not! Why not??!!

To the naked eye, this is not a big deal, but the fact that I did not automatically eject that which was unsavory is the small fox I am after! Allow me to share how this simple instance turned into a serious teach moment!

When it dawned upon me that the morsel in my mouth was vile, the Lord brought to my remembrance the verse, "Oh taste and see that the Lord is good..."! Before I fell asleep that night, I found Psalm 34 and verses 8 through 10 stood out by saying,

"O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him. O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him. The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing."

As I pondered on the scripture before me, it became vividly clear that my history led me to believe that I was born to feast on nothing more than heartbreak, labor and humiliation! The demonstration of such an erroneous belief was so ingrained into my existence that it settled into my way of life; my way of thinking and my way of expecting beneath my privilege! This troubles me, because when did I cut this unnatural agreement to trade sweetness for these years of ugliness as a seeming preferred comfort? Who knows? So, I will just file this under “Another folded attempt in Satan’s plan to steal, kill and destroy me” and deem it immaterial!!

The real revelation to the tasty side of this lesson is that the Lord said He has come to bring sweetness to my life and honey to my existence! He has witnessed the venom that has transpired and has elected to manifest a paradox of His manifold joys in exchange for my historical pain. The levels of joys prepared for me is divinely designed to wipe clean the hard drive of my memory; recalibrate the expectation of my senses and eliminate the divide between the starvation of my former days and the abundance of my original intent!!

Therefore, I consciously decide to nullify the terms of this contract and fall out of love with bitterness!! Just because the Lord prepares tables before me in the presence of my enemy, does not mean I am supposed to eat off their plates! I am ready to partake in my Heavenly Father's goodness with an enlarged mouth to ask with boldness; an enlarged heart to believe in His performance and with enlarged hands to receive until there is no more room!

Blessed am I for hungering after the fruits of God’s love and the nectars of heaven, for I shall be sweetly filled and will never hunger or thirst again!

Taste and see…